okay so i would like to update all on everything that has happened lately.
for the last month or so rabbit has been hurting me.
sometimes intentionally.
he has caused a lot of pain and distrust for me.
i have forgiven him however. did he hurt me - yeah. is it as easy to trust him - no. will he always be my best friend - of course.
when brandon slept with nina i was angry sure - did i forgive him - yeah.
the thing is . . . when brad hurt me rabbit picked up the pieces. he put me back together and i have been slowly mending myself over the last few months.
i have changed - i know that sounds idk how it sounds but its true. i feel different.
i feel oddly passive and i care a lot about people - everyone really.
i dont hold grudges anymore. for instance if brad were to call me asking for help or just wanting to talk i would help. i have forgiven him - for everything. all he did to me directly and all hes done since i hurt him, not only to me, but to him.
i have been talking to my sister and chillin with her - i even invited her to the blue october concert with me next month.
i guess my being more friendly has caused a little confusion though - my guy friends have all become "attracted" to me. i have had to tell like 4 guys that we are just friends that i dont want a boyfriend or any kind of relationship.
im really just not ready. i know that much about myself.
idk i just really like people in general and i try to get to know them. i have been doing what i feel is right and so far its working out great.
anyway yeah im doing good everything is back on track. im really really happy with my AP Art History class its perfection. and now more than ever im convinced thats what i want to study.
Rabbit and i are great! yay!
today was Orange and Black day at junction! the homecoming game is tonight! and homecoming is tomorrow.
im generally happy with life right now!
oh and i got fired at Genghis but it really doesnt bother me. i have way more time now though the moniez was good. oh well what can you do?!?
hearts all
*Squeegee*
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