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Chat 1 me and Skyler
[21:36] CupricReki: its so incredibly unfair to do this to a person
[21:36] LAurEn DiAne: yeah we established that
[21:37] CupricReki: i just see the world for being a better place than it realy is
[21:39] LAurEn DiAne: yeah you do
[21:39] CupricReki: i just wish he could relize what hes doing to her
[21:40] CupricReki: shes ganna be forever changed
[21:40] LAurEn DiAne: a lot of people are sky.
[21:40] LAurEn DiAne: daily
[21:40] CupricReki: but who the hell things they deserve the power to do that to someone?
[21:41] CupricReki: thinks*
[21:41] LAurEn DiAne: a lot of dad's husband's brother's a lot of peoples families spouses boyfriends...

i hate this time of year. when i remember everything so clearly. this isnt helping much. i mean i love my dad. i live with him we get along fine. hes a different person and so am i. i just i dont know. i havent forgotten and i dont think i ever will.

conversation 2 me and Rabbit
[21:41] [unclan] Rabbit: Hey, are you okay? You still didn't awnser my question in the first place
[21:41] LAurEn DiAne: im alright
[21:42] [unclan] Rabbit: :( You kinda have me worried
[21:42] LAurEn DiAne: just sky talking to me about his girls abusive father
[21:42] LAurEn DiAne: bad memories and shit
[21:43] [unclan] Rabbit: Yeah, is there anything I can do for you?
[21:43] LAurEn DiAne: but he doesnt understand that what she is going through now i went through years ago
[21:43] LAurEn DiAne: and it was worse
[21:43] [unclan] Rabbit: :(
[21:44] * [unclan] Rabbit wishes he could give lauren a hug right now :'(
[21:45] LAurEn DiAne: yeah i just want it to go away but i want to help him too. and her. but i cant face my past not yet. im suprised i can live with him. i guess i just understand that people change


[22:09] LAurEn DiAne: i just didnt want to think about any of that especially with nov coming up
[22:09] [unclan] Rabbit: :(
[22:10] LAurEn DiAne: its just hard living with him and paige pointed out that her bday is only 4 weeks away
[22:10] LAurEn DiAne: its so close two years now and still i can see it as if it were yesterday
[22:11] [unclan] Rabbit: It won't happen again
[22:12] LAurEn DiAne: i know but it still hurts
[22:12] LAurEn DiAne: and then sky talks about it like it doesnt happen all the time.
[22:12] LAurEn DiAne: he didnt even realize that it was hurting me
i just i dont know. i need sleep.
night