I Dont Know What I Want.

okay so i really dont know what i want!
i want to be with brandon and at the same time i really dont.
i want to go to go to CSU but at the same time i want to stay here.
i want to fly more than anything but that would mean joining an armed force.
i want to be seen as one of the elite but i dont want to act like them.
i want to be with tyler (TJ) but dont know if i can.
i want to be single and flirtatious but what are the implications of that?
i really just dont know what i want.

but i need to make decisions and fast.

if i get into CSU and get scholarships i will go. (i hope)
brandon is out of town so that gives me some time to really think.
and TJ wont be home for another month so i have time to think about that too.

now im going to go read and then its off to Naturita!
yay!