Tyler

i finally got to be alone with Tyler yesterday.
we went to lunch, wrapped presents, then he dropped me off at my grandparents and returned two hours later to play Apples to Apples with my mom, sister, cousin, grandmother and i! they love him. as they should he's truly incredible. we have spent a lot of time talking about our future as well. the thought of Jayden becomes more tangible every time i see and talk to Tyler. i honestly dont know how it wont happen someday. we talked about Malachi a lot last night too. Katie gave him up for adoption without telling him. He misses him so much. he would have adopted him, he would have taken great care of him, he loved him. but katie took that away from him! it isnt fair. honestly i would have helped tyler with Malachi, adopted him eventually. the fact that tyler loved him so much made me love him too. i would have loved to be his mother. and i know that we would have been a great family. but tyler is right about us not having to rush, we have all the time in the world to become a family. and Malachi has a mother and a father now, instead of just Tyler, who would have raised him alone until we could be together. 10 years of college ahead of us both, longer for tyler and he still has a tour left, in Afghanistan or Iraq, depending on when he ships out. itll be another 18 months before he comes home again.
anyway back to last night.
afterwards we went to rabbits and chilled there. we looked through pictures, videos and listened to stories about Iraq. i hadnt really heard anything about it. rabbit and Tyler seemed to get along really well. Tyler likes him, thinks he should "respect" me more, based on recent events, but thinks hes an all around good guy. i want him to meet the rest of my friends, i trust him and his opinion more than any other.
in other news christmas has been great! so many books to read, and so many movies to watch! im excited to see my friends again though.
yall should call me laterz if you like!
im off to watch a movie with my sister!
ttfn!