so bradley breaks up with me and we are going to be friends.
i can feel that something is wrong with him he isn't feeling just right or maybe something happened and it caused him either A: pain or B: anger or C: frustration or D: all of the above and all of these are probably my fault they usually are. i want him to be happy, to know that he made the right decision and i WANT him to know that no matter what has happened between us the break ups the fights everything that i will always love him and that even though i said this was the last time its really not. i would like to think that i can say no that he has hurt me too many times for me to trust him or be with him ever again, but i cant because i would be lying to myself and him.
i want him to want me and i want him to love me and i want him to love me but i TRULY DEEPLY want him to be nothing more than HAPPY. whether thats with me or some other girl i just i want him to be happy, and if hes not then i feel like i have to find a way to fix that and make him happy, however i think im only making things worse so im going to try and remove myself from the equation. im going to concentrate on school and friends and trying to be happy but im not going to meddle any more.
i dont know that we can be friends and still be happy.
i can feel that something is wrong with him he isn't feeling just right or maybe something happened and it caused him either A: pain or B: anger or C: frustration or D: all of the above and all of these are probably my fault they usually are. i want him to be happy, to know that he made the right decision and i WANT him to know that no matter what has happened between us the break ups the fights everything that i will always love him and that even though i said this was the last time its really not. i would like to think that i can say no that he has hurt me too many times for me to trust him or be with him ever again, but i cant because i would be lying to myself and him.
i want him to want me and i want him to love me and i want him to love me but i TRULY DEEPLY want him to be nothing more than HAPPY. whether thats with me or some other girl i just i want him to be happy, and if hes not then i feel like i have to find a way to fix that and make him happy, however i think im only making things worse so im going to try and remove myself from the equation. im going to concentrate on school and friends and trying to be happy but im not going to meddle any more.
i dont know that we can be friends and still be happy.
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