Im taking a page or well post from rabbits blog. i have so much to say to so many people. in the last few weeks i have screwed up not only my life but a lot of peoples. i cant fix that now. i wish i could but i really cant. i apologize to everyone i hurt.
Rabbit: you have been an amazing friend. i dont know what i would have done over the last few weeks without you. i love you and i do mean that. you risked a lot when you decided to be my friend and i hope that that was the right choice for you. i want you to be happy and if that means that you are friends with brad and not me then thats great, if it means being my friend then thank you. everything you have done for me is just truly amazing and i couldn't ask for a better friend. you are one of my best friends right now and well thank you!
Brittany: you have always been an amazing friend. you brighten all of my days and without you i would be totally lost. thank you for helping me keep everything in perspective. i really appreciate you friendship and i hope that i don't screw that up. you are truly a fantabulous person. i love you!
TJ: my best friend. the one person i love above all others. you are my family, my friend, my life line, my everything. without you i would cease to exist. i know we are moving through a weird phase but i also know that we will make it through like always. you and i both need to figure out what we are going to do. you have katie and malachi to worry about and i have everyone here to worry about. remember Usque Coagmentatio. I miss you and cant wait for you to get home. concentrate on staying alive and in a few months we will be together again. I love you, be safe!
Chelsea: you and i have been in kind of the same boat with boys for a while now. i am sorry about Dustin and i wish i could help you but honestly i am totally the wrong person to ask. but you have helped make me happy over the last few weeks. i hope i can do the same for you. i love you and i want the both of us to be happy! and remember if you do want to talk you can ask and i will listen.
Shaneille: you and i just became friends. we have known each other for a while but really we just became friends. you are an amazing person. pretty much always happy. you brighten everyday. thank you for that. i know you are also going through the boy thing and if you need to talk let me know. i <3>
Levi: you have helped me so much over the last few weeks. thank you for the advice and sparring believe it or not i feel soooo much better. You have always been an amazing friend. thank you for everything! i missed you and i hope that we will be able to see each other more in the future.
Sean: you are hilarious. you have managed to make me laugh more in the last few days than i have in weeks. thank you for everything. especially allowing me to enter your group. you guys are amazing. the time we have spent together has been great and i thank you for every second of it.
Skyler: i just met you as well and you have welcomed into your home and life. thank you. you are great guy and i appreciate you allowing me to be your friend.
The Whitewater Crew: you guys are awesome. we have so much fun together and i just don't know what else to say. you accepted me into your group without the blink of an eye. you are fun and funny, and above all else you are sweet. all of you. thank you for everything.
last but certainly not least:
Brian: you have entered my life and taken it by storm. relationship is not a good word for me right now. i just got out of a relationship and honestly thought i would be "single" for a while. however, i didn't count on meeting someone as amazing as you. you are a comfort and a challenge. a lover and a fighter, and a fantabulous guy. i don't deserve someone as great as you but ill take what i am given. I hope that us being together is a good thing. right now however i want to thank you Brian Acker for all that you have done. you have been a tremendous help to me and my life. i appreciate your friendship and your caring. I hope to be seeing much much more of you. <3!
those were the thank yous now the apologies . . .
Alex: you are Brad's friend and my family. I don't want you to have to choose between the two of us. you are more than welcome to ditch me in exchange for brad and his plans. i apologize for putting you in this situation. you are a friend and you shouldn't be forced to decide between two friends. i hope this makes it easier for you. if you have to choose choose brad. he is your friend and he needs you now. i am your family, i will always be here. if you need something don't hesitate to ask, no matter the problem i want to help.
Stephen: you and i were never really close friends but i feel i should apologize for the problems i may have caused you. i know that i was stupid and i don't expect nor do i deserve forgiveness. i am only trying to help in understanding. Brad is your friend and has been for a long time. i don't intend to interfere with that, however, i am here if you ever need someone to talk/vent to. again never hesitate to ask.
Jeremy: i lied to you as well. you were right to be an ass to me. i apologize for what i did. i really don't know where you stand exactly. however i do assume that you are not speaking to me and i honestly don't blame you. i wouldn't speak to me either. i do apologize and hope that everything works out for you.
Debate kids: you guys are great. and i know you are in the middle as well. i have spoken to a few of you and hope that we can continue to be friends. Jon and Blake i have your stuffs just holler and i shall return it!
Rhino: you were a great friend. i did what Robert did however, i asked your advice and proceeded to ignore it. i apologize for that. now however i have complied with brad's wishes. i have been removed from [unclan] and your friendship. not what i want but i need to respect brad's wishes. i cant fix him a rabbit but i can do everything else. i loved being your friend and hopefully at a later date that would be of more convenience to the both of us. ill miss you rhino. thanks for all the advice!
finally Brad: i have apologized for everything. I am so sorry for the way i hurt you. It was not my intention. i honestly don't know what else i can say.
again i dont know what else to say.
Rabbit: you have been an amazing friend. i dont know what i would have done over the last few weeks without you. i love you and i do mean that. you risked a lot when you decided to be my friend and i hope that that was the right choice for you. i want you to be happy and if that means that you are friends with brad and not me then thats great, if it means being my friend then thank you. everything you have done for me is just truly amazing and i couldn't ask for a better friend. you are one of my best friends right now and well thank you!
Brittany: you have always been an amazing friend. you brighten all of my days and without you i would be totally lost. thank you for helping me keep everything in perspective. i really appreciate you friendship and i hope that i don't screw that up. you are truly a fantabulous person. i love you!
TJ: my best friend. the one person i love above all others. you are my family, my friend, my life line, my everything. without you i would cease to exist. i know we are moving through a weird phase but i also know that we will make it through like always. you and i both need to figure out what we are going to do. you have katie and malachi to worry about and i have everyone here to worry about. remember Usque Coagmentatio. I miss you and cant wait for you to get home. concentrate on staying alive and in a few months we will be together again. I love you, be safe!
Chelsea: you and i have been in kind of the same boat with boys for a while now. i am sorry about Dustin and i wish i could help you but honestly i am totally the wrong person to ask. but you have helped make me happy over the last few weeks. i hope i can do the same for you. i love you and i want the both of us to be happy! and remember if you do want to talk you can ask and i will listen.
Shaneille: you and i just became friends. we have known each other for a while but really we just became friends. you are an amazing person. pretty much always happy. you brighten everyday. thank you for that. i know you are also going through the boy thing and if you need to talk let me know. i <3>
Levi: you have helped me so much over the last few weeks. thank you for the advice and sparring believe it or not i feel soooo much better. You have always been an amazing friend. thank you for everything! i missed you and i hope that we will be able to see each other more in the future.
Sean: you are hilarious. you have managed to make me laugh more in the last few days than i have in weeks. thank you for everything. especially allowing me to enter your group. you guys are amazing. the time we have spent together has been great and i thank you for every second of it.
Skyler: i just met you as well and you have welcomed into your home and life. thank you. you are great guy and i appreciate you allowing me to be your friend.
The Whitewater Crew: you guys are awesome. we have so much fun together and i just don't know what else to say. you accepted me into your group without the blink of an eye. you are fun and funny, and above all else you are sweet. all of you. thank you for everything.
last but certainly not least:
Brian: you have entered my life and taken it by storm. relationship is not a good word for me right now. i just got out of a relationship and honestly thought i would be "single" for a while. however, i didn't count on meeting someone as amazing as you. you are a comfort and a challenge. a lover and a fighter, and a fantabulous guy. i don't deserve someone as great as you but ill take what i am given. I hope that us being together is a good thing. right now however i want to thank you Brian Acker for all that you have done. you have been a tremendous help to me and my life. i appreciate your friendship and your caring. I hope to be seeing much much more of you. <3!
those were the thank yous now the apologies . . .
Alex: you are Brad's friend and my family. I don't want you to have to choose between the two of us. you are more than welcome to ditch me in exchange for brad and his plans. i apologize for putting you in this situation. you are a friend and you shouldn't be forced to decide between two friends. i hope this makes it easier for you. if you have to choose choose brad. he is your friend and he needs you now. i am your family, i will always be here. if you need something don't hesitate to ask, no matter the problem i want to help.
Stephen: you and i were never really close friends but i feel i should apologize for the problems i may have caused you. i know that i was stupid and i don't expect nor do i deserve forgiveness. i am only trying to help in understanding. Brad is your friend and has been for a long time. i don't intend to interfere with that, however, i am here if you ever need someone to talk/vent to. again never hesitate to ask.
Jeremy: i lied to you as well. you were right to be an ass to me. i apologize for what i did. i really don't know where you stand exactly. however i do assume that you are not speaking to me and i honestly don't blame you. i wouldn't speak to me either. i do apologize and hope that everything works out for you.
Debate kids: you guys are great. and i know you are in the middle as well. i have spoken to a few of you and hope that we can continue to be friends. Jon and Blake i have your stuffs just holler and i shall return it!
Rhino: you were a great friend. i did what Robert did however, i asked your advice and proceeded to ignore it. i apologize for that. now however i have complied with brad's wishes. i have been removed from [unclan] and your friendship. not what i want but i need to respect brad's wishes. i cant fix him a rabbit but i can do everything else. i loved being your friend and hopefully at a later date that would be of more convenience to the both of us. ill miss you rhino. thanks for all the advice!
finally Brad: i have apologized for everything. I am so sorry for the way i hurt you. It was not my intention. i honestly don't know what else i can say.
again i dont know what else to say.
2 comments:
Lauren, I know the past few weeks have been really hard for you. I understand where you stand, and where we stand as an 'us'
There is no problem with us taking it slow, that is what I wanted, and that is what we agreed on. For now, We will have fun, be there for each other, and have a blast while we are at it.
I really hope you wont worry about the past few weeks as much, at least in terms of me. I understand what is happening, and I know its really hard. But remember, I;m here for you, always, when you need to talk, I;m here, when you need a shoulder to cry on, I'm here, when u need a pair of ears to listen to you, I'm here. and when you need someone to be with, just to get away from everything else, just to have a good time, and forget about all of this, I am here for you.
Can't wait tell I see you again.
<3
Brian
*cries*
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