I had one of the most random days imaginable today.
I hung out with Greg first thing. Nic is back from boot camp so he was there too. with Greg and Nic comes two things, Alcohol and Cigarettes. so of course the first thing i do is get a cig. After a year and a half i had a cigarette. I felt tons better and remembered why i liked them. sadly however i wont be having anymore. /me is disappointed in herself. : (
Next I went to GameStop because Robert told me that if i had anything to drink that he wouldn't talk to me anymore. /me shakes fist at Robert! so instead of indulging in the drunken pleasure of imported Rum i went to GameStop.
There i met up with Robert and Whitney. We went to the mall and got icees. then proceeded to return to GameStop only to run into my worst enemy yup you guessed it the person that hates me the most BRAD! him and Stephen were there. the tension was sooooo incredibly bad. i totally freaked out. i was shaking so bad that after he left the store i had to sit on the ground. of course not to be rude i said "Later" to Stephen (mainly because i have no issue with Stephen) which was followed by a "I think not" by Brad. yeah that was fun.
After that I spent a good half hour on the phone with Rhino. we talked about all my issues and how i could resolve them. i wish that that would actually happen but i honestly dont think that i can fix anything with the way things are going.
Then i spent a good 2 hours hanging out with Cameron. yeah i know random. we watched Futurama and just chilled out. he gave me cores to his drumsticks though for my birthday. i am happy to say that i am the only one to own/be given actual drumsticks from Cameron! btw your a bad ass!
after that i proceeded to spend several more hours with Robert at GameStop while he worked. then we picked up Brianna and went to GJ Scores to chill. that was fun.
when we got bored there we went to VI! yay for cheese fries and awkward conversations. Brad texted Brianna said "we are going to Denver" random much then called and said they were going to VI she talked them out of it. ummmm yeah pretty sure he wants to hurt me and is thinking about hooking up with Brianna. she says they wont date though because hes not Christian.
all i know is that i cant do anything. i cant date, i cant kiss, i cant do anything. i dont trust myself to not crush some innocent guy. i cant apologize anymore because now it is no longer my fault. i tried to fix it.
but since the lying thing i haven't done anything to him. NOTHING! i didnt take away Robert! that was his CHOICE! im not trying to take any of his friends. it is their CHOICE to hang out with me. i have done nothing wrong in the last month.
Brad made Robert choose and he knew full well that asking someone to choose is telling them not to choose you. Brad himself believes this. their was no loyalty or respect coming from Brad when he did that. NONE!
i need to stop now.
good night.
I hung out with Greg first thing. Nic is back from boot camp so he was there too. with Greg and Nic comes two things, Alcohol and Cigarettes. so of course the first thing i do is get a cig. After a year and a half i had a cigarette. I felt tons better and remembered why i liked them. sadly however i wont be having anymore. /me is disappointed in herself. : (
Next I went to GameStop because Robert told me that if i had anything to drink that he wouldn't talk to me anymore. /me shakes fist at Robert! so instead of indulging in the drunken pleasure of imported Rum i went to GameStop.
There i met up with Robert and Whitney. We went to the mall and got icees. then proceeded to return to GameStop only to run into my worst enemy yup you guessed it the person that hates me the most BRAD! him and Stephen were there. the tension was sooooo incredibly bad. i totally freaked out. i was shaking so bad that after he left the store i had to sit on the ground. of course not to be rude i said "Later" to Stephen (mainly because i have no issue with Stephen) which was followed by a "I think not" by Brad. yeah that was fun.
After that I spent a good half hour on the phone with Rhino. we talked about all my issues and how i could resolve them. i wish that that would actually happen but i honestly dont think that i can fix anything with the way things are going.
Then i spent a good 2 hours hanging out with Cameron. yeah i know random. we watched Futurama and just chilled out. he gave me cores to his drumsticks though for my birthday. i am happy to say that i am the only one to own/be given actual drumsticks from Cameron! btw your a bad ass!
after that i proceeded to spend several more hours with Robert at GameStop while he worked. then we picked up Brianna and went to GJ Scores to chill. that was fun.
when we got bored there we went to VI! yay for cheese fries and awkward conversations. Brad texted Brianna said "we are going to Denver" random much then called and said they were going to VI she talked them out of it. ummmm yeah pretty sure he wants to hurt me and is thinking about hooking up with Brianna. she says they wont date though because hes not Christian.
all i know is that i cant do anything. i cant date, i cant kiss, i cant do anything. i dont trust myself to not crush some innocent guy. i cant apologize anymore because now it is no longer my fault. i tried to fix it.
but since the lying thing i haven't done anything to him. NOTHING! i didnt take away Robert! that was his CHOICE! im not trying to take any of his friends. it is their CHOICE to hang out with me. i have done nothing wrong in the last month.
Brad made Robert choose and he knew full well that asking someone to choose is telling them not to choose you. Brad himself believes this. their was no loyalty or respect coming from Brad when he did that. NONE!
i need to stop now.
good night.
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