I got into a car accident tonight.
we were in a high speed moving car and three of my best friends were in the front seat without seatbelts. Chelsea, Brittany and Tony. Chelsea hit her head on the dash and i pray that she is going to be okay. Brittany and Tony seemed fine and Rabbit who was sitting next to me in the back seat is fine. but i am scared to death that tomorrow morning im going to wake up and that i will have lost my best friends. im scared of that but i also realized somethings.
things i was kinda already aware of but . . .
this just pushed it over the edge.
The first thing that came to mind tonight was talking to Brad.
thats all i wanted. i wanted to call him up and have him tell me that everything was okay. But i couldnt and i cant and im not okay with that right now. Brad i am so sorry for everything and right now all i want is for everything to go back. i want to be able to call you and talk to you. i want to be able to help you and have you help me. i want to comfort you and be comforted. i want everything to go back to the way things were.
Next came TJ.
I dont know whats going on in Iraq and that scares me. you wont talk to me. you wont tell me whats wrong. everything is so messed up and i need to hear your voice. I need you. i need to know your okay and i need you to come home.
After that was Greg.
you were my best friend for so long and the last year has torn us apart. I miss you and i need you. I dont know whats going on with you and why you wont tell me. but i know its bad and that it merits worry. im afraid for you and afraid of what is happening.
Then of course there were the thoughts of Kelsi and what happend to her.
She died in a car accident this past year. and it was hard on everyone. i miss her and wish that we had been closer. or maybe i dont.
I talked to Bryson.
he is in denver and has informed me that he wont be coming home as soon as he thought. i miss him and i want to see him again.
I am not okay with the way things are right now.
I need all of the above mentioned people with the exception of Kelsi and Brad to talk to me. i need to know what is going on and i need to know that you are okay. the only reason brad is excluded is because i am trying to respect his wishes. if he doesnt want to talk to me then thats fine im not using this as a way to reenter his life. but if you do want to talk to me brad feel free.
Rabbit thank you for being there for me tonight. im glad you were with me. thank you for everything. and i honestly dont know what i would have done without you.
feel free to call me.
for the most part however i am going to be afk and out of reach for a day or two.
i will answer the phone and sometime emails.
im crashing at rabbits tonight, ill be home early tomorrow though.
good night everyone. sleep well.
<3.
we were in a high speed moving car and three of my best friends were in the front seat without seatbelts. Chelsea, Brittany and Tony. Chelsea hit her head on the dash and i pray that she is going to be okay. Brittany and Tony seemed fine and Rabbit who was sitting next to me in the back seat is fine. but i am scared to death that tomorrow morning im going to wake up and that i will have lost my best friends. im scared of that but i also realized somethings.
things i was kinda already aware of but . . .
this just pushed it over the edge.
The first thing that came to mind tonight was talking to Brad.
thats all i wanted. i wanted to call him up and have him tell me that everything was okay. But i couldnt and i cant and im not okay with that right now. Brad i am so sorry for everything and right now all i want is for everything to go back. i want to be able to call you and talk to you. i want to be able to help you and have you help me. i want to comfort you and be comforted. i want everything to go back to the way things were.
Next came TJ.
I dont know whats going on in Iraq and that scares me. you wont talk to me. you wont tell me whats wrong. everything is so messed up and i need to hear your voice. I need you. i need to know your okay and i need you to come home.
After that was Greg.
you were my best friend for so long and the last year has torn us apart. I miss you and i need you. I dont know whats going on with you and why you wont tell me. but i know its bad and that it merits worry. im afraid for you and afraid of what is happening.
Then of course there were the thoughts of Kelsi and what happend to her.
She died in a car accident this past year. and it was hard on everyone. i miss her and wish that we had been closer. or maybe i dont.
I talked to Bryson.
he is in denver and has informed me that he wont be coming home as soon as he thought. i miss him and i want to see him again.
I am not okay with the way things are right now.
I need all of the above mentioned people with the exception of Kelsi and Brad to talk to me. i need to know what is going on and i need to know that you are okay. the only reason brad is excluded is because i am trying to respect his wishes. if he doesnt want to talk to me then thats fine im not using this as a way to reenter his life. but if you do want to talk to me brad feel free.
Rabbit thank you for being there for me tonight. im glad you were with me. thank you for everything. and i honestly dont know what i would have done without you.
feel free to call me.
for the most part however i am going to be afk and out of reach for a day or two.
i will answer the phone and sometime emails.
im crashing at rabbits tonight, ill be home early tomorrow though.
good night everyone. sleep well.
<3.
3 comments:
Well Holy shit dear im glad u are o.k
Wow, Lauren. I hope that everybody is ok, turns out Levi and I stayed up all night and you could have called us anytime. I pray that you, rabbit, and everybody else is OK.
I really wish TJ would talk to you more, so you wouldnt have to worry. I am here, you can call me whenever you need. I am here for you, and you know that.
Feel Better...
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Brian
That totally sucks! Car crashes suck! I hope no lasting damage was done to anyone's lives. I'd say nothing good ever comes out of car crashes, but I know that to be simply untrue. From over here, a good thing might be that this might be a "practice" run for a crash in the future, and you guys know what you did wrong and will now prevent future pain (no seat belts? wtf? I'm glad nobody got hurt too bad, you guys are lucky!). And IMO, you shoulda acted on thought #1.
OK, I gotta ask! Was the almost last line "im crashing at rabbits tonight" with or without intended pun, lol! GOSH!
And since nobody got too hurt, how's the car? Was it nice and now it's not, or was it a beater anyway? It wasn't the Viper I bought for your b-day was it?
Just email me if you find time to respond to anything I rambled up there^.
- Rhino
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