crying. . . it hurts

He still isn't talking to me, and i really don't know why. He's mad at me because everything came out of nowhere but i explained that to him. i'm really afraid...and i think its because A)its early and B)him not talking to me is making my imagination go crazy. I get that scene from Legally Blonde, the one where Warner breaks up with Elle instead of proposing. I hear and see it all play out in my head. Then i start to think well what if breaking up with me is on Bradley's mind. Maybe i pushed it this time, maybe i said just the right thing and he doesn't want me any more. I really don't know what to do or how to fix this, and it hurts. My heart aches and I can't make it go away. I just wish it wasn't so painful to be without him. Because if he does break up with me i don't know what i will do. My heart and soul will shatter and I'm pretty sure that can't be fixed or mended.

Everyone says that he loves me and i won't lose him. Robert said to give it 24 hours and if he doesn't talk to me by then to freak out. Rhino said a week but i don't know if i can handle a week. I guess we'll see. I just wish i could see the future so i would know what to expect. I am trying to have faith that we are supposed to be together. I know he loves me and i know i love him with all my heart, but maybe love isn't enough . . . i hope that i'm just overreacting and that everything thing will be okay i want us to be okay i just don't know how to get there.