Rant!

UGGGGHHHH! so he's no longer mad he just doesn't want to talk to me! God I wish he had told me that earlier, then maybe i wouldn't have spent the whole fucking day wondering what the hell whats going on! Maybe i could have had fun instead of crying over him! All day all i did was wonder if he was going to break up with me...wondering if i should call or text or IM, but no i didn't want to make it any worse...AHHHHHh and i couldn't concentrate, i have like 50 problems in Trig and i have absolutely no idea how i'm even supposed to start them! I couldn't even watch Heroes, or be happy about my job! No i was too worried about whether or not i screwed up too bad this time! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
i feel so angry and so sad at the same time. I want to cry and at the same time i want to go over to his house throw my promise ring at him and tell him we're over! but i don't really want us to be over i'm just ah i don't even know!

Do you see bradley do you see what you did to me! are you happy with the way you made me feel the way I am going crazy! Next time just call and leave a fucking message on my stupid phone "lauren i'm not mad anymore everything is fine i really just don't feel like talking right now" Thats all you had to say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Eh now im done ranting well until i see brittany and shanna tomorrow. i still want to cry though...