Two Major things happened today!
the first is good so ill tell that first! I got a JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shall be working at JC Penny in the shoe department! I am very very excited!!!!!
the second sucks and is far more important than my recent employment.
Bradley and i are fighting...
this morning i talked to him and i was all excited about Valentines Day... normally im not that excited in fact i usually hate the holiday. However, this year i have brad and i was truly looking forward to spending a romantic night with him. Unfortunately Brad doesn't feel the same enthusiasm as i do. the only reason (that i derived from our conversation this morning) he was even going to celebrate with me is because he felt the need to make me happy. which he doesn't have to do normally. just being around him makes me happy. His reason almost hurt, because he wasn't doing this because he wanted to but because he felt he had to, to make me happy. I want him to want to be mushy and cute, i want him to be excited for something romantic. Maybe i am overreacting but i just i don't know. I want to feel like he's going to be happy doing something like celebrating Valentines day. If he doesn't want to do something he shouldn't have to and if he doesn't want to do it he won't be happy about doing it. I just want him to be happy, to feel like he isn't required to do something.
This fight is my fault:
A) i shouldn't have brought Valentines Day up
B) i shouldn't have requested we celebrate it
C) i should just let things go, but i hate when we fight it makes me feel sick
D) i shouldn't want so much!
i should apologize and i will i just need brad to understand first but i don't think he does. so well that was my day... Yay for the new job. Ew for my relationship issues.
the first is good so ill tell that first! I got a JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I shall be working at JC Penny in the shoe department! I am very very excited!!!!!
the second sucks and is far more important than my recent employment.
Bradley and i are fighting...
this morning i talked to him and i was all excited about Valentines Day... normally im not that excited in fact i usually hate the holiday. However, this year i have brad and i was truly looking forward to spending a romantic night with him. Unfortunately Brad doesn't feel the same enthusiasm as i do. the only reason (that i derived from our conversation this morning) he was even going to celebrate with me is because he felt the need to make me happy. which he doesn't have to do normally. just being around him makes me happy. His reason almost hurt, because he wasn't doing this because he wanted to but because he felt he had to, to make me happy. I want him to want to be mushy and cute, i want him to be excited for something romantic. Maybe i am overreacting but i just i don't know. I want to feel like he's going to be happy doing something like celebrating Valentines day. If he doesn't want to do something he shouldn't have to and if he doesn't want to do it he won't be happy about doing it. I just want him to be happy, to feel like he isn't required to do something.
This fight is my fault:
A) i shouldn't have brought Valentines Day up
B) i shouldn't have requested we celebrate it
C) i should just let things go, but i hate when we fight it makes me feel sick
D) i shouldn't want so much!
i should apologize and i will i just need brad to understand first but i don't think he does. so well that was my day... Yay for the new job. Ew for my relationship issues.
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